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2005-03-29T03:00:01Z

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Goodbye Peterpann .. Goodbye .. </3

shit ..

2005-03-28T17:40:54Z
Im making a new LJ .. I need to start over .. Clear my past from my head .. Ill post later with the name .. it'll be friends only .. </3

fuck fuck fuck

2005-03-28T04:40:19Z

more things about yourself. i'm crazy yes?

Created by slayerwz and taken 294 times on bzoink!

who you might be?

your name Angela

age 15

do you like your life? no

are you a girl or a boy? ladii

what's your pet peeve? or if you don't know what it means liers

your favorites!

movies Better Than Chocolate .. SLC Punk

color black .. neon green .blue

books Annie On My Mind .. any lesbian book pretty much

band My Chemical Romance .. The Used ( the older stuff ) .. and From First To Last

actor Matthew Lillard

actress Sandra Bullock .. Meg Ryan

singer Christina Aguilera

food chicken ..

drink diet coke .. Smirnoff

place to live in? Alaska .. New York

season? Winter

month December

day? Saturday

subject in school English .. French

animals? Pengies .. Dogs

your behavior around people

how do you feel about gays? i love them ..

what do you want in your life? a girl ..

when you graduate or had graduated, would you go to college next? yes ..

Who would you rather hang out with, the popular or the jocks? these days .. the popular kids are jocks ..

what's the embarrasing things you've seen? seen .? i dont know ..

would you prefer to be in a large group or small group? small ..

Would you hang out with people who are sitting lonely in the corner? yeah .. hah like me ..

are you a loner yes

Are you popular? no

are you a leader in your group? dont have one ..

Do you pick on people? mhm ..

what would you like to do as a group? go to PI again

would you give up a best friend or a perfect sweet heart? neither ..

your school

what school do you go to? Harmony

what is your average grade? B

do you like your school? no

did you graduate? no

went to the prom? no .. not going to

did you join any clubs? when i was younger

any sports? not anymore ..

what's your favorite subject? i already said this - english nd french

What subject you're good at but didn't like? i dont know

what's your worst subject? anything math related ..

ever pulled pranks? yeah

have hated a teacher? yeah

got any enemies? mhm

do you have something against cheerleaders? not really ..

what do you like to do on your spare time in school? eat candy ..

should making out in the hall be allowed? of course ..

Should we be allowed to keep hats inside? mhm ..

was your school private, or public? was .? - is public

which is better, private schools or public schools public

decisions

sacrifice millions of dollars or your best friend? millions of dollars

get eaten by a shark or get bit by many poisonous snakes? shark

hang out with overweight people or ugly people? ugly .. i hate fat people ..

watch Barney and friends for a month or eat worms for a month Barney

lose a best friend or lose a boyfriend/girlfriend girlfriend

get lost in the forest or get lost in the desert? forest ..

which is more important? Loyalty or respect? Loyalty ..

listen to old people ramble, or listen to screaming babies old people ..

fun stuff

what magical powers would you rather possess? Reading Minds ..

what would you like? A talking cat or a flying dog? flying dog

If your life was a movie, what would you call it? How To Fuck Up Everything

who do you think can protray your life? Anyone

which celebrity would you definetly love to meet in person? CHRISTINA AGUILERA

Which would you choose, a gun or a sword? gun ..

would you play a truth or dare game? yeah ..

if you can have three wishes, what would it be? love .. happiness .. and um .. lots of candy .?

would you have your own talk show? no ..

What would you like to be famous for? gay rights

would you spend four years on an island with an enemy or loud friend enemy

would you forgive a person who hurt your feelings long time ago no

would you keep a billion dollar you found on a floor? uh ,, yeah

would you make your own magazine? yeah

would you make your own book? sure ..

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watching The L Word .. over the phone with Stace .. I dont even know what to say right now .. i guess ill explain later .. this was just to get my mind off of things .. im out .. </3

sick of all this shit man ..

2005-03-24T20:44:02Z
You are able to take the conflicts of the day and solve the unsolvable -- as long as you understand that there are many different ways to reach the same goal. Part of your current annoyance stems from the fact that people seem to be in disagreement about which information is to be trusted. Trust your own genius, for in your heart you know what is important.

Today is boring .. i didnt get to do anything yesterday .. i hope i go somewhere soon .. it sucks not having friends .. when there is so much time to fuck around .. i refuse to stay here nd do nothing this break .. On Friday i think .. me nd Daddy are going to Jacksonville to be with Staci .. so that should be fun .. Oohh .. Teen Sex is on tonight .. i gotta watch it with Tammy .. i dont really have anything to updtae .. cause once again my life is a utter blah .. i think ima bore you with another quiz .. ahh suck it up .. im out </3 Okay nevermind .. this computer takes too long .. ill do it later .. im going to watch Someone Like You .. i <3 this movie .. im out </3 ..

hMpFf

2005-03-23T00:02:46Z

I LOVETH YOU MISS LESHA DANIELLE MYERS .. IM SORRY .. BUT I CANT HELP IT ..

pOlliE wOlliE ..

2005-03-22T23:52:14Z
do you think i am - beautiful , pretty , okay , ugly , ou discusting ..

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"at least you dont dress like a guy .. at least you dont look like a dyke .. I LOVE YOU .! " - Petah

2005-03-21T19:30:39Z

True Love (for single people only)

Created by masenkothunder and taken 167 times on bzoink!

The Past

First Relationship? This does NOT mean as little kinds. At least 6th grade. bleh .. Carmelo ..

How long did that first last? who knows ..

When was your last relationship? December

How long did that one last? Dec. 30th - Jan. 10th

How did the last one end? with a break up by her friend ..

When was your first kiss? 6th grade ..

First REAL kiss? With passion! Or was it that one? April 7th grade ..

Setting? School .. behind the brick thing .. next to the office ..

Did you see fireworks? see .. no .?

Who was it with? Katie

Did it go on to anything else? no ..

Your first make out session..when? May .? 7th grade ..

Setting? Amanda Raver's house .. watching Drumline ..

Just kissing or a little more? just kissing ..

...what's 'a little more'? ----

Ever done anything involving contact with the naughty parts? oh lord ..

If so, specify.

Was that just physical or romantic? both i suppose ..

Would you have casual sex? no

Sex before marriage at all? yes

How far would you go in a relationship before marriage? i dont know .. im fucking 15 ..

Ever experimented with a friend? no ..

Ever experimented with someone of the same gender? yes

Was it truth or dare/spin the bottle/etc? neither ..

Would you for money, and if so, how much? no ..

The Ideal Relationship

His/her eye color blue .. green .. brown ..

Hair color? blonde .. brown .. red ..

Long or short? And special style, if any? long .. nd short .. you get the picture ..

Ethnicity? white ..

Tall or short? tall .. (er)

Age range? 15-17

Social group? (rich kid, jock, goth...?) prep .. punk ..

Do you think liking those things make you shallow? nope

Do they matter a lot to you or just are preferences? just preferences ..

Describe their personality, then. sweet .. honest .. willing ..

Serious or easygoing? both ..

Shy or bold? both ..

A dirty dancer or a sweet romancer? (or both?) both ..

A friend, someone who just knows of you, or a stranger met on a date? a friend

Animal lover or hater? lover ..

Do they want kids? If so, how many? i dont .. but Danni does .. so sure .. one .. baby boy ..

Are they more physical or romantic? both ..

Hm. Since we're getting into this, ready for another topic? sure ..

It doesn't matter! Crush time!

Do you have a crush right now? yes ..

In the past? mhm ..

Are they usually physical or romantic attractions? physical and romantic ..

About the most recent, or current: Name? Lesha Danielle

Don't be a chicken! Name? .. Lesha Danielle ..

Are you just doing that because they might read this? no .?

Does he/she meet most of your ideals? yes ..

What do they match the most? sweet .. beautiful ..

The least? being single ..

Politically similar? im not sure ..

How long have you known them? technically .. almost eight months .. for real know .. only a couple of months ..

Are you friends, just aware of each other, or they don't know who you are? friends .. it feels weird saying that ..

You told them yet? yes ..

You going to? already did ..

If no, what would it take for you to tell them? ------

Single sentence about them. She is the most beautiful , amazing , sincere person ive ever met ..

Was it love at first sight? i dont believe in love at first sight ..

Was it lust at first sight? i thought she was hott ..

Ever fallen for a friend? yes ..

If so, how did that work out? not to well ..

Do you think it'd be nice to go out with a friend instead of a stranger? yes ..

Ever gone out with someone you met at a party or club? no ..

Ever gone way farther than you thought you would with someone? nope

If so, who? If not, do you think you would if the mood was right? when i do what i do .. it isnt farther than i thought .. but is exactly what i thought .. NOT doing something isnt something i thought i wouldnt do .. if that makes sense ..

What do you wish you could say to your crush? i want to be with you forever ..

...do with your crush? everything ..

Yourself

Are you a physical being or a romantic one? romantic i think ..

Candlelight or dance music? Candle light i suppose ..

A flirt or the shy kid in the corner? both ..

Get jealous easily? no .. not until it comes to Katie ..

Are you happy go lucky or serious? serious ..

Are you a loner? pretty much ..

Do you have a tortured soul on the inside? yes

You bother to hide it? yeah .. but it doesnt seem im any good at it ..

You cry about love? yes .. usually the only thing i cry about ..

Ever been hurt in love? everytime ..

How badly if so? If not, what would hurt you? i was devestated .. for months ..

Ever wish you could take something back in a relationship but's too late? words ..

Ever ruin a friendship because you fell in love with him/her? No .. if i date a friend .. nd it doesnt work out .. we stay close ..

Ever really "been just friends" with someone after a relationship? yes

What's the perfect first date with someone you know at least somewhat? the beach .. at night ..

What about several dates later? sex .. on the beach .. at night ..

What's a good first date with someone you just met? i dont know ..

Who pays for the dates? me ..

Who decides where to go? them ..

Who decides what happens...you know what I mean... them ..

Who should propose? depends ..

Where would be the perfect spot for that? on a mountain ..

Is there some special way you'd do it/want it? many ways .. none to be described ..

A big or small wedding? small ..

Who'd be your best man/maid of honor? well if i had one now .. Tammy .. but when im older .. how do i know .. im not getting married anyways ..

...who's your secret 'want to marry' guy or girl? Danni .. no secret ..

Do you actually know why they put cans on the back of a wedding car? No .. good question though ..

If you could have a singer at the wedding, who'd it be? Christina Marie Aguilera ..

Honeymoon spot? Italy ..

Would you even leave the place to look around? the last couple of days ..

Lastly...do you want love or is it optional in life? i want it .. and i think i need it ..

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NoTe tO SeLf : i MiSs yOu TeRriBLy ..

2005-03-21T18:11:52Z
My Weekend ::

Friday - I went to P.I. with Tammy and Danni .. We met up with Lauren, Louie , and Ashley .. we saw Karah, Loren, and some other people too .. Me, Danni, Tammy, Lauren, Ashley, and Louie walked around for a bit .. just fucking around .. then we went to McDonalds .. Got some fries .. nd walked back to the movie theater .. we saw The Ring 2 .. its was good .. it was so funny .. everytime one of us would make a comment .. like the whole theater would laugh .. i sat next to Tammy nd Danni .. Danni sat next to Louie .. she's so amazing .. she can get along with just about anyone .. i was suprised at how well she got along with all our friends .. i got to hold her hand too .. :) .. twas wonderous .. all in all Friday night fuckign kicked ass .. i wish i could do it over and over again ..

Saturday - Me, Staci, Daddy, Dylan, and Chris we're going to some arena football game .. Me nd Stace went nd picked up Danni a little while after we were there .. i was suprised at how much my Daddy didnt care .. while we were in the car trying to finish Staci's drink .. we talked a little bit .. Staci wanted me and Danni to kiss .. we didnt of course .. but it was funny .. i had some to drink before that too .. so i was prob acting idotic .. anyways then we went in .. and it was actually pretty gay .. i dont know why anyone would pay to see an indoor football game .. they looked like little action figures on a foosball table .. lol .. the ride home made up for it though .. everybody was so wasted .. it was hilarious .. After we got home everypne left .. nd it was just me nd Danni .. at first we just kinda looked through yearbooks , nd notes and stuff .. later on we watched 8 Mile nd just chilled .. i got to hold her .. i didnt ever want to let go .. i havent felt so .. i dont know .. complete .. in such a long time .. i wanted her to be mine .. and to be able to do nd say all the things going through my mind .. she is so wonderful .. and although its hard .. not being able to be the one she needs .. i wouldnt give up the little time i have with her for anything .. i got to fall asleep next to .. holding .. the one person who makes me happy .. what more could i ask for ..

Sunday - Danni sleeps like a crazy person .. i think she wouldve slept forever if i hadnt woken her up .. i didnt sleep at all .. so i was pretty much up all night nd morning .. she had to be home by noon .. nd we got her there late .. nd she got in trouble :( .. i know she says it isnt my fault but i think it was .. after we dropped Danni off .. me , Daddy, nd Staci went to the Milleium Mall .. i felt like shit the whole time though .. nd im nto sure why .. i got two CDs , a shirt , nd some socks .. then we went to The Cheesecake Factory .. then home .. after talking to Danni i started to feel as if i was never going to be the object of her affection .. nd all this shit wouldnt escape my mind .. Staci nd Daddy are getting closer .. which is great .. she is the best .. for Spring Break we're gonna go up to Jacksonville nd chill with her .. i wish Danni would come .. but i doubt she'd wanna or be able to ..

My weekend in general was great .. because i got to be with Danni .. it was hard .. nd kinda hurt .. but all worth it .. thank you Sweetie .. for allowing me to spend time with you ..

Monday ( today ) - I didnt go to school .. cause i was super tired .. nd i still dont feel good .. im suprised my Daddy let me stay home .. i hope he called or is going to call school soon .. or ima end up being suspended .. only two days then no school for over a week .. thank god .. my mom is acting normal again .. still overly angry about the no medicine thing .. but i think im stick with not being on it .. Staci said she thinks its the best decision i couldve made .. but i think thats only cause shes an all natural kinda freak .. i dont know .. i updated .. so now i guess ima go .. nd thank my daddy for letting me stay home by cleaning .. im out .. </3

" gUyS aRe LiKe bUnNiEs .. YeAh .. ThAtS iT .. "

2005-03-18T23:27:52Z
today was okay .. til i got home .. nd my mom called .. nd we got into a huge fight about me not taking my medicine .. lets just say i did a couple of no no's .. oh well .. my dad bitched her out too .. i was suprised .. he usually isnt that bad to her .. i kinda feel bad .. but tis not my fault .. or is it.? well anyways .. Krystal broke up with Anna .. which isnt suprising .. Im going to the movies with Tammy nd Danni .. <3 we're going to see The Ring 2 .. i cant wait to see her .. she so beautyfuls .. ahh .. i tolded her i called her my wife .. heh .. opps.. me nd tammy are trying to figure all our stuff out .. tis funny .. i gotta wait til Danni calls me back .. nd i gotta hurry up nd take my shower .. so ima go .. sorry tis so short .. oh nd p.s. just for clarification .. in my quiz post .. idk why but it says no after have you ever run away .. but it should say yeah .. well im out ..

I </3 You Babe

FiRsT kiSsEs nD RaZoR bLaDeS ..

2005-03-15T22:29:37Z
RANDOM
(1) Your gender: [ female ]
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: [ gay - lesbian ]
(3) Single?: [ as always ]
(4) Want to be?: [ no ]
(5) Your birth day: [ Jan. 19th ]
(6) Age you act: [ idk ]
(7) Age you wish you were: [ 16 nd/or 21 ]
(8) Your height: [ 5'1 ]
(9) The color of your eyes: [ blue ]
(10) Happy with it?: [ no ]
(11) The color of your hair: [ brown .. ish ]
(12) Happy with it?: [ sure ]
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: [ right .. for writing .. left for everything else ]
(14) Your living arrangement?: [ at home with my bro nd daddy ]
(27) Your family: [ daddy , brother , mother ]
(29) What's your job: [ i dont have one yet ]
(30) Piercings?: [ some day my tongue ]
(31) Tattoos?: [ none yet ]
(32) Obsessions?: [ xtina ]
(35) Do you speak another language? [ not really .. it ake french though ]
(36) Have a favorite quote?: [ " I still remember what it tastes like .. what it felt like " ]
(37) Do you have a webpage?: [ no ]

DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: [ kind of .. i used to anyway ]
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: [ depends ]
(40) Do you have any secrets?: [ sure ]
(41) Do you hate yourself?: [ yes ]
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: [ no ]
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: [ self doubt ]
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: [ um .. idk .. " you have pretty eyes " .? ]
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: [ how to be a nothing ]
(46) What's your biggest fear?: [ dying alone ]
(47) Can you sing: [ no ]
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: [ never ]
(49) Are you a loner?: [ pretty much ]
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: [ no ]
(52) Are you a daredevil?: [ mhm ]
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: [ everything ]
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: [ both ]
(55) Have you got a ?: [ How many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie pop ? ]
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? [ im not sure i have any strengths ]
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: [ everything ]
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: [ love .. then i dip my toe into beauty ]
(59) How do you vent?: [ ---- ]
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: [ on the outside ]
61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: [ yes ]
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: [ fuck no ]
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: [ trust no one ]
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: [ not much ]
(65) And least?: [ everything ]
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: [ hah .. no ]
(67) Are you confident?: [ no ]
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: [ Eliza ]
69) Do people know how you feel?: [ sometimes ]
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: [ yes ]

DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: [ occasionally ]
(72) Do drugs?: [ rarely ]
(73) Read the newspaper?: [ no ]
(74) Pray?: [ hah no ]
(75) Go to church? [ fuck no ]
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: [ sometimes ]
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: [ sometimes ]
(78) Take walks in the rain?: [ yes ]
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: [ * laughs * yeah ]
(80) Drive?: [ when my mom lets me - permit ]
(81) Like to drive fast?: [ yeah .. im a speed demon ]

HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: [ no ]
(83) Hurt yourself?: [ yes ]
(84) Been out of the country?: [ yes .. Cancun Baby ]
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: [ hmm .. idk ]
(86) Burped?: [ uh .. yeah ]
(87) Been unfaithful?: [ never ]
(88) Been in love?: [ no ]
(89) Done drugs?: [ yeah ]
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: [ nope ]
(92) Had a surgery?: [ yeah ]
(93) Ran away from home?: [ no ]
(95) Gotten beaten up?: [ no ]
(97) Been picked on?: [ yeah ]
(98) Been on stage?: [ many times ]
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: [ ah .. not the date part though .. interesting question ]
(100) Slept outdoors?: [ yeah ]
(101) Thought about suicide?: [ yeah ]
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: [ yes ]
(103) If yes, what is your record?: [ hell i dont know ]
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: [ yes ]
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: [ opposite .. no .. same yes .. its my favorite thing in the world ]
(107) Slept all day?: [ no ]
(108) Killed someone?: [ no - stupid question ]
(109) Made out with a stranger?: [ no ]
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: [ no .. whore ! ]
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: [ yeah ]
(112) Kissed the same sex?: [ yes .. another of my favorite things to do ]
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: [ yes ]
(114) Been betrayed?: [ hah .. bajillions of times ]
(115) Had a dream that came true?: [ no ]
(116) Broken the law?: [ yeah ]
(117) Met a famous person?: [ umm .. no .. i almost met Burt ]
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: [ NO! ]
(146) Stolen anything?: [ yeah ]
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: [ raido no - tv yes ]
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: [ yeah ]
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: [ mhm ]
(150) Considered religious vocation?: [ no ]
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: [ not to my face ]
(152) Bungee jumped?: [ oooh not yet ]
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: [ yes ]

CLOTHES and other fashion
(154) Shoe brand?: [ converse ]
(155) Brand of clothing?: [ dickies ]
(156) Cologne/perfume?: [ Georgio Armani ]
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: [ clothes ]
(159) Wear hats?: [ no ]
(161) Wear make-up?: [ never ]
(162) Favorite place to shop?: [ hot topic ]
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: [ my green shirt that Amber thinks i look like the guy from Blue's Clues in .. lol ]
(164) Are you trendy?: [ so fucking trendy ]
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: [ uh no ]

BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets?: [ sure why not ]
(167) Miracles?: [ no ]
(168) Astrology?: [ yeah ]
(169) Magic?: [ no ]
(170) God?: [ no ]
(171) Satan?: [ no ]
(172) Santa?: [ not since i was like 5 ]
(173) Ghosts?: [ no ]
(174) Luck?: [ no ]
(175) Love at first sight?: [ nope ]
(176) Yin and Yang?: [ no ]
(177) Witches?: [ yeah ]
(178) Easter bunny?: [ hoppity hop hop ]
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: [ for me yes .. others .. idk i doubt it ]
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: [ no .. there are lesbians at the end of the rainbow .. duh ]
(181) Do you wish on stars?: [ no ]

LOVE, and all that
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: [ no .. ? ]
(183) Do you remember your first love?: [ of course ]
(184) Still love him/her?: [ always will ]
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: [ mistake .. no .. painful .. yes ]
(186) What do you find romantic?: [ kisses ]
(187) Turn-on?: [ sweetness , legs , high heels , neck kissies .. etc ]
(188) Turn-off?: [ guys .. concidedness ]
(189) Do you base your judgment on looks alone: [ no ]
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: [ flattered ]
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: [ knowing them ]
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: [ why the hell would i care .. im gay ]
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: [ hmm .. not really .. kinda i guess ]
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: [ no ]
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: [ nothing ]
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: [ idk .. whats with all these opposite sex questions ]
(207) What's the last present someone gave you? [ hah .. um .. oh a CD nd slippers that said Everybody Is A Dick .. for my bday ]
(208) Are you in love?: [ no ]
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: [ i dont have one ]
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: [ stare ]

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: [ Superman ]
(212) You wanted to kill?: [ Katie ]
(213) That you laughed at?: [ Krystal ]
(214) That laughed at you?: [ Krystal ]
(215) That turned you on?: [ no comment ]
(216) You went shopping with?: [ i dont remeber ]
(217) That broke your heart?: [ Jennifer ]
(218) To disappoint you?: [ hmm idk ]
(219) To ask you out?: [ Jessi ]
(220) To make you cry?: [ Danni ]
(221) To brighten up your day?: [ Danni ]
(222) That you thought about?: [ Danni ]
(223) You saw a movie with?: [ Tammy nd Maurice ]
(224) You talked to on the phone?: [ Tammy ]
(225) You talked to through IM?: [ Danni ]
(226) You saw?: [ my mom ]
(227) You lost?: [ Jennifer ]
(229) You thought was completely insane?: [ Mita ]
(230) You wanted to be with?: [ Danni ]
(231) You told off?: [ the girl who sat in my seat ]
(232) You trusted?: [ Danni ]
(233) You turned down?: [ Lauren ]

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: [ the last time i saw Danni ]
(235) Laughed?: [ at school ]
(236) Cried?: [ its been awhile ]
(237) Bought something?: [ today -candy ]
(238) Danced?: [ 8th grade ]
(239) Were sarcastic?: [ school ]
(240) hugged someone?: [ last Monday ]
(241) Talked to an ex?: [ today ]
(242) Watched your fave movie?: [ its been awhile .. is houdl do taht when i get home ]
(243) Had a nightmare?: [ couple nights ago ]
(245) Talked on the phone?: [ days ago ]
(246) Listened to the radio?: [ in the car ]
(247) Watched TV?: [ before i came to do this ]
(248) Went out?: [ this morning - to school ]
(249) Helped someone?: [ idk ]
(250) Were mean?: [ today ]
(251) Sang?:[ in the car ]
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: [ months ago ]
(253) Said "I love you"?: [ said .? hmm July 22nd ]
(254) Missed someone?: [ now ]
(255) Fought with a family member?: [ minutes ago ]
(256) Fought with a friend?: [ dont know ]
(257) Had a serious conversation?: [ days ago ]
(258) Got drunk?: [ lord knows its been too long ]

FAVORTIE
candy?:[ Xtremes ]
movie?: [ Better Than Chocolate nd SLC Punk ]
author?: [ Nancy Garden ]
actress/actor?: [ Sandra Bullock , Meg Ryan , and Matthew ]
color?: [ black nd neon green ]
day of the week ?: [ Saturday ]
car?: [ Cobra ]
number?: [ 7 ]
restaurant?: [ Ground Round ]
fast-food place?: [ KFC ]
language?: [ Italian ]

Okay well that was fun .. i had to do something .. im bored .. my mom left nd idk where she went .. i need to check my grades but it wont let me .. i wore my hair down today .. i got lotsa compliments .. idk why .. i dont like it .. its confirmed - Kristen's boobs get bigger everyday .. lol .. anyways .. i dont have much to write .. i miss Danni .. i guess ill for real update later .. im out </3 What am i on your 1-10?

DuChE bAg

2005-03-14T15:09:15Z
3rd period .. again .. i had to get out .. that lady is so mean .. and none of the other TA's are there today either .. so i gotta be by myself .. i dont wanna go back .. on Friday i had to ride the bus home .. well i wanted to ask Katie if she liked Danni so i told her i needed to tell her something but i couldnt .. then i looked up at Kristen so she'd know why .. i didnt expect her to come sit next to me .. but she did .. and she's like what?. i was like .. um .. nvm .. i dont wanna know .. she's like oh god Danni told her about this .. like how you think i like her or something .. i was like well do you .. and she goes yeah i guess .. well i dont know .. im like dude you dont even know her .. nd shes like yeah i know that why i dont know .! then she said that she knew i liked Danni and Danni liked me and that was another reason she didnt know .. but she said she would if she could .? i dont know .. whatever .. we talked about some other stuff too .. it was weird .. i was looking through her phone and she had certian dates of when she and Kristen when out .. i asked her if she could remember the last time we did .. and she couldnt .. or the time .. or place .. of anything .. except she did get where we first made our right .. and when i asked her the first place we kissed she knew where and what i was wearing but not when .. its okay .. i guess its just me .. i remember everything about everything .. oh that reminds me Super Hero - how come that night when you thought i was mad and you said you had a beep nd you'd call me back .. you couldnt call me back .. but you could call Katie 10 times .? im sorry i have to ask .. ANYWAYS .. i dont know what else to write .. my weekend kinda sucked .. on Saturday i went to my moms house nd helped my brother with his research paper .. then we watched a movie .. on Sunday i went to my aunts house with my mom .. that wasnt so bad .. the kids are soo cute .. except when they cry .. godd i hate it .. i colored lots of pictures .. i think ima go buy a coloring book nd bring it to school everyday .. its 10:07 .. class gets out around 10:30 .. so i have about 20 minutes til im leaving .. hope she doesnt care .. she made me take my hood off nd not sit on the desk :( .. mean old hag .. okay i dont have anything else to say .. im out </3 Super Hero - i <3 you very much .. and i would gladly be with you .. itd be hard .. cause of Jennifer .. and how EVERYONE likes you .. but i dont know .. i dont know why im saying this .. i dont know if you nd Jenn will break up .. or if you do if im the one you'll pick .. but i hope so .. not the breaking up .. but the picking me if you ever happened to .. i know we dont talk much anymore .. and im not sure why .. but i would like to .. like we used to .. out three to four our convo's .. i miss those .. i miss you .. i want to see you .. if i do ill give you your square :) .. even though its really gay :( .. anyways Angewahh loves you and misses you .. mucho love grande style .. </3

DeNiAL iS yOuR sWeEt SuReNdeR

2005-03-09T21:07:30Z
well today was .. the same as usual .. started out okay .. now im just feeling all shitty again .. i really am alone now guys .. since Krystals gotta a chick i never see her .. oh well .. i like being alone .. i think .. i dont know .. i dont know anything .. im listening to Obsession .. hmm .. im bored but i dont have anything to update .. i dont remember if i said .. but i got to see Danni on Monday .. i went to her track meet .. " i know your not my lady .. im just trying to make this right .. i dont know what to do .. im going out of my mind " .. Lee came a little whole after .. it was cool .. i made a friend .. his name is Raymond .. haha .. he was lonely i thought we should talk to him .. i think we scared him ..
REMENICING
hmm i miss the days of fucking around with people .. shoot .. i miss middle school believe it or not well maybe not middle school .. but 8th grade atleast .. i miss walking through the halls with Tammy everyday .. never being anywhere without her .. i miss looking Maurice sneeking out of class everyday to come talk to me when i was in SMILES .. miss listening to him get all excited about guitars .. pretending i knew what he was talking about .. i miss Ms. Frederick .. and how she helped with everything .. i miss Lauren and Logan .. i miss how every where we went he'd have to shout " ITS OKAY !! SHE'S A LESBIAN " .. hah you shouldve seen the look on the computer teachers face when he'd responded to her " no PDA Logan " .. i miss flicking DJ in the back of the head in computer class .. nd then him putting me in a head lock begging me to ride the bus again .. hah makes me think of the day he set a fire nd hauled ass .. nd some crazy man tried to kill me cause i took the blame for it .. i miss Josh in computer class .. showing me his skate videos of him nd his stuipd friends .. i miss Sara and how she used to hold my hand .. or sit on my lap .. and not care what people thought .. i miss pissing my teahcers off ... i miss Maurice's " thats what you gets' " .. i miss going up to James everyday telling him he owed me $5 cause my girlfriends boobs were bigger .. i miss talking to the lunch man who always made fun of my fish nets .. i miss eating frosting with Alex , James , and Megan in art class .. i miss Ms. Cardinelli always looking at me funny cause i always drew lesbian or i love Jennifer stuff .. she didnt believe me the red headed nurse from Roger Rabbit was the hottest cartoon ever .. i miss watching Maurice try to save Jordan from getting in a fight with the scary black kid cause the black kid called him a nigger first .. i miss asking to go to the ballroom nd coming back 15 minutes later .. godd .. i dont know .. i just miss how things were .. i mean they wernt easier .. i still had to go through the whole Jennifer thing .. and DJ dying .. nd Maurice moving , and my mom nd dad divorcing .. but idk .. somehow it was differant .. idk .. maybe im just retarted .. nd i onyl miss it cause id ont have it .. i dont know .. im gonna go .. sorry this was so stupid .. im out </3

gOd iS aN afRiCaN aMeRiCaN FeMaLe ..

2005-03-09T01:08:39Z
i dont know whats wrong with me .. i feel like shit .. my mom is being a bitch today .. and im not talking to her .. i dont know why .. apparently it works cause she keeps apologizing .. i dont know .. i just dont feel like talking .. FCATS sucked .. had no idea what i was doing .. i had to go to two appointments today .. nd the second one took forever .. had to fucking sit there for an hour .. whatever .. i dont feel like bitching .. im going to do this quiz to help .. i dont know .. something .. then im going to go watch Idol .. im out .. </3 . :x: name = [ Angela ] :x: piercings = [ none yet .. ] :x: tattoos = [ none yet ] :x: height= [ 5'1 ] :x: shoe size = [ converse - 5 ] :x: hair color = [ brown ] :x: eye color = [ blue ] :x: siblings = [ 1 , Petah ] LAST... :x: movie you rented = [ uh .. dont remember ] :x: movie you bought = [ Ray .. for my Daddy ] :x: song you listened to = [ something by The Used ] :x: song that was stuck in your head = [ obsession ] :x: cd you bought = [ The Used - The Used ] :x: cd you listened to = [ ^^^ ] :x: person you've called = [ Danni ] :x: person that's called you = [ Tammy ] :x: tv show you've watched = [ Friends ] :x: person you were thinking of = [ Danni ] DO... :x: you have a crush on someone = [ yes ] :x: you wish you could live somewhere else = [ hell yeah .. ] :x: you think about suicide = [ not as much ] :x: you believe in online dating = [ no ] :x: others find you attractive = [ no ] :x: you want more piercings = [ yeah ] :x: you like cleaning = [ when im pissed ] :x: you like roller coasters = [ very much so ] :x: you write in cursive or print = [ print ] FOR OR AGAINST... :x: long distance relationships = [ depends ] :x: using someone = [ against!! ] :x: suicide = [ depends ] :x: killing people = [ also depends ] :x: teenage smoking = [ for ] :x: driving drunk = [ against i guess ] :x: gay/lesbian relationships = [ FOR ] :x: soap operas = [ against ] HAVE YOU... :x: ever cried over a girl= [ hah yeah ] :x: ever cried over a boy = [ i dont think so ] :x: ever lied to someone = [ yeah ] :x: ever kissed someone of the same sex = [ yeah ] :x: ever been arrested = [ nope ] WHAT... :x: shampoo do you use = [ pantene ] :x: shoes do you wear = [ converse ] :x: are you scared of = [ dying alone , midgets , dicks , etc ] NUMBER... :x: of times I have been in love?= [ Never ] :x: of times I have loved someone? = [ Twice ] :x: of times I have had my heart broken? = [ hmm .. many times .. same people ] :x: of hearts I have broken? = [ idk ] :x: of girls I have kissed? = [3 ] :x: of boys I have kissed? = [ uh .. 2? ] :x: of boys I've slept with? = [ NONE ] :x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = [ hah ] :x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?= [ like 3 or 4 ] :x: of scars on my body? = [ lots ] :x: of things in my past that I regret? = [ a few ] favorite: 5 letter word: [ 5 .? hmm .. oh! Lesha ! ] actor/actress: [ Matthew , Sandra Bulllock , Meg Ryan ] Candy: [ Xtremes ] Cartoon: [ Fairly Odd Parents , Duck Man ] Cereal: [ none ] Chewing gum: [ Polar Ice ] Color(s): [ black , blue , neon green ] Color nail polish: [ black ] Day of week: [ Friday ] Least fave day: [ Monday ] Flower: [ yellow roses ] Jello flavor: [ dont like jello .. unless its in a shot ] Jewelry: [ all mine ] Special skills/talents: [ none ] Summer/Winter: [ winter ] Trampolines or swimming pools: [ neither ] || Person who last.. || Slept in your bed: [ Staci ] Saw you cry: [ saw me ?. idk prob Jessi ] Mase you cry : [ Danni ] You went to the movies with: [ Tammy ] Yelled at you: [ mom ] Sent you an email: [ Tammy ] || Have you ever.. || Said "I love you" and meant it?: [ yes .. i dont say things i dont mean ] Gone out in public in your pajamas: [ yeah ] Kept a secret from everyone: [ yeah ] Cried during a movie: [ a couple ] Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: [ yeah ] Planned your week based on the TV Guide: [ no ] Been on stage: [ yes ] Been to New York: [ yes .. i love it ] Been to California: [ no ] Hawaii: [ no ] China: [ no ] Canada: [ no .. summer i will though ] Europe: [ no .. someday ] Asia: [ no ] South America: [ no ] Australia: [ no ] Wished you were the opposite sex: [ no ] What time is it now?: [ 8:06 ] Apples or bananas?: [ neither ] Blue or red?: [ blue ] Walmart or target?: [ target ] Spring or Fall?: [ idk .. in Florida its always summer ] What are you gonna do after you finish this?: [ watch tv ] What was the last meal you ate?: [ i dont eat meals ] High school or college?: [ college ] Are you bored?: [ yeah ] Last noise you heard?: [ whatever my mom made ] Last time you went out of state/province?: [ after the first hurricane - Cancun Mexico ]

LiNeD wiTh tEaRs ..

2005-03-05T17:08:48Z
Havent talked to Danni in two days .. im at my moms house .. im really bored .. i miss Tammy .. i havent seen her in forever .. i cant believe its already Saturday .. they justc ant let me have a break can they .. i dont really know what to write because nothing is happening .. but im bored .. so i guess ima go look for a quiz or something ..

:: RANDOM ::
What does your name mean? [ heavenly messenger ]
How old are you? [15]
How old are you mentally (as in are you mature?)? [ idk ]
Describe yourself in 5 words: [ depressed , lonely , insecure , hurt , and hopeful ]
What are your worst qualities: [ my self esteem ]
What are your best qualities: [ caring ]
How long does it take you get get ready in the morning: [ like 15 minutes ]

:: SLEEP ::
Do you dream at night? [ sometimes ]
Do you remember your dreams? [ most of the time ]
Describe one - [ Derek and Kevin made out .. hah ]
What time do you go to bed usually? [ who knows .. ]
What time do you wake up normally? [ 5:45 ]
What time do you wake on weekends? [ idk depends ]
Do you find waking late nice or annoying? [ annoying ]
do you sleep with one pillow or two? [ two ]

:: SCHOOL ::
Do you like school? [ nope ]
Why/why not? [ its fucking gay ]
Whats ur fave subject? [ well it used to be english but out teacher sucks .. so i guess .. french ]
Most hated subject? [ algebra ]
Do you have a fave teacher? [ Ms. O'Rourke ]
Ever had a crush on a teacher? [ no .. but James thinks i do .. i cant help it if she's hott ! ]
Are you a maths/science person or an english/drama person? [ well english .. but not drama .. used to be ]

:: FRIENDS ::
Do you have heaps of friends? [ hah .. no ]
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends? [ girl ]
Do you ever get annoyed at any friend? [ yeah .. ]
Have you ever lied to a friend? [ well if i said no id be lying .. everyone lies .. but not really ]
Have you ever stolen a friends boyfriend/girlfriend? [ no .. well .. yeah .. three times .. but i didnt really steal them .. they came to me .. ]

:: FAMILY ::
Do you like your parents? [ sometimes ]
Ever run away from home? [ many times ]
Ever thought about it? [ yeah .? ]
Do you have any siblings? [ yes .. Petah ]
If so, do you like or get annoyed with them? [ both ]
How old are they? [ 18 ]
If not, do you mind being an only child? [ ^^^ ]
Do you feel your parents spoil you? [ never ]
Do you not get along with any of your family? [ not sure .. never with they long enough ]
Do you have big family get togethers ever? [ no ]

:: SEX ::
Still have your virginity? [ yeah ]
Believe that a person shouldnt have sex before marriage? [ no one waits anymore ]
Believe in casual sex? [ believe in it ? i wouldnt do it .. but i dont care if you do ]
When do you plan/when did you lose your virginity? [ never .. i hate winkeys ]
Did you regret it? [ ^^^ ]

:: RELIGION ::
Do you have a religion? [ no ]
Do you practice it i.e go to church? [ no ]
Do you believe in God? [ nope ]
Jesus? [ no ]
Satan? [ no ]
Heaven? [ no ]
Hell? [ no ]
If you died tomorrow what do you believe will happen to you? [ i have no idea .. dont really care ]

:: MORALS ::
Have you ever been drunk? [ yeah .. ]
taken drugs? [ yeah .. ]
stolen? [ yeah ]
shoplifted? [ no ]
tried to commit suicide? [ yeah .. ]
Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend? [ yeah ]
are you more innocent or guilty? [ idk .? ]
Would you date a drug addict? [ depends what drug ]
Have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict? [ couple times ]
Are you racist? [ not so much anymore ]
Are you discriminatory to anyone? [ no ]
Have you been a hypocrite in the past? [ prob. hasnt everyone ? ]
Do you have an open or closed mind to other peoples beliefs and feelings? [ open ]

:: MEDIA ::
Do you watch tons of tv? [ mhm ]
How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months? [ 2? ].
Do you listne to the radio often? [ not unless im in a car ]
Do you read the newspaper? [ no ]
Do you read magazines? [ no ]
Are you a couch potato? [ yeah ]
Do you use the internet too much? [ not anymore ]

:: MUSIC ::
Whats your fave style of music? [ any kinda rock ]
Do you play an instrument? [ used to ]
Do you sing? [ no ]
Whats your fave band? [ My Chemical Romance ]
Name 3 cds that youve bought in that last year - [ The Used , Diary - Alicia Keys , and On The Front Line - The Casualties ]
Why did you buy them? [ because i wanted to ]

:: PERSONALITY ::
Are you funny or serious? [ can be both ]
Creative or not? [ depends ]
Logical thinker or lateral thinker? [ logical ]
Are you outgoing or shy? [ both .. more shy nowadays ]
Are you lazy or active? [ lazy ]
Have you ever been hyperactive? [ yes .. ]
Are you a naturally hyperactive person? [ used to be ]

:: LOOKS ::
Are you happy with the way you look? [ no ]
What would you change? [ everything ]
Do you wear makeup regularly? [ nope ]
Do you have a large wardrobe? [ hah .. no ]

:: MONEY ::
Do you have a job? [ not yet .. ]
Do you like it? [ ^^^ ]
Are you a saver or a spender? [ saver ]
Do you work hard or slack off? [ both ]
Have you ever been fired? [ no ]
In trouble at work? [ ---- ]
Made a major mistake? [ yeah ]
Ever had money stolen from you? [ yeah ]
Are you always broke? [ most of the time ]

Okay im done .. off to see whats on tv .. although theres prob nothing .. it is Saturday .. not a cool kid .. im staying home by myself .. im out ..

Happy Birthday To My Daddy ..

I </3 Her .. </33

nOt sO SuRe ..

2005-03-03T14:51:55Z
its 3rd period again .. god i hate school .. i cant wait until its over .. last night Danni and Jennfier broke up .. everyone thinks i should be happy .. im like wtf .. just because i like her doesnt mean i want her not to have someone else .. i mean i am kinda happy .. because i believe once its all over she will be the better for it .. from what i know all Jennifer did was bring her down .. im still sad for her though .. and i hope everything gets better .. I <3 her so much .. and it hurts to see her sad ..

i dont really know what to write .. oh i dont know if i said it before but my daddy might have to go to jail for 15-30 days .. that fucking sucks .. oh nd is birfday is on Saturday .! my grades suck .. and they arnt getting any better .. i dotn know whats going on with me .. im always so tired .. and these stupid pills dont make me happy .. even though my parents think they see a change in me ..

For spring break my momw ants me to go to Connecticut with her .. i todl her i didnt know .. i asked her if Danni could come nd she said no cause tis too exspensive .. im like ill pay for her .! she doesnt believe me .. that would be so awesome if she coudl come with me though .. </3 .. i might get to see her today .. yay .. even though i look like complete shit .. well like always .. but more so today .. kay i gotta go .. ima check out some lesbonic bookies .. im out .. </3 I Miss Nd Love You .. More Than You Know .. im so sorry .. </3

nO sChOoL

2005-02-25T16:45:38Z
well im at my aunt nd uncles house now .. its actually not that bad .. earlier yeterday it was boring nd i felt like shit .. but once the sun went down i was fine .. i have to use a left handed mouse .. tis weird .. oh dude .. i wanted to tell Danni this but she never called me back .. but last night i was talking to my mom .. nd i found out that .. her two sisters nd her mom know im gay .!. i was like what?! i had no idea .. thats fucking awesome dude .. ahh .. okay anyways .. oh shit i forgot to take my pills .. i hate them .. they make me so yucky .. my hearts beats really fast , i shake , im nauseus , and i feel like ima pass out .. almost every time .. oh nd today is Friday isnt it .. that means i gotta tke a whole one today .. bleh .. i wonder what we're doing today .. prob alot of walking around somewhere in the sun :( .. idk what to write .. i miss Danni .. i wish she was here .. grr .. so pathetic .. i gotta go .. this keyboard makes my fingers hurt .. im out .. </3 i <3 nd Miss You Deeply ..

__________________

2005-02-24T05:42:12Z
Well just got home from City Walk .. went with my mom , brother , his girlfriend , my two aunts , and my cousin .. i dont have anything else to do so i decided to write in here .. my mom is busy in the living room talking to my aunts .. she's freakin crazy dude .. tonight shes all moody nd then now shes talking about how my brother is the way he is cause of my dad .. idk whatever .. i couldnt hear it anymore so i left .. tomorrow im going to Cape Coral .. its like four hours away .. whoo hoo .. oh well i get to miss school .. i wanted my brother to go but he didnt want to miss school .. oh!. he kissed me .. hah .. it was weird .. anyways .. school was shitty as usual .. i still have shit loads of homework to do .. the stupid machines stole my money!. $3.50 they stoled from me .. douche bags .. we saw Hitch .. it was okay .. it prob. would have been funnier if this stupid medicine didnt make me all drowzy .. bleh .. i ran into the wall .. idk whats wrong with me .. i called Danni but idk what happened .. i really needed to talk to her .. i guess she couldnt talk .. great i had to just ask my mom directions to the bar my brother has to pick my daddy up from .. bleh .. oh .. we went to Hard Rock too .. i didnt eat anything .. nd i sat there all .. zoned out .. idk .. i dont know what to write .. okay im out ..

i <3 nd miss you .. </3 .. im happy things are going better for you two ..

pOoP

2005-02-23T01:23:11Z
hey babe im updating for you .. it cant be long though .. sorry its taken me awhile i had to work on that homework nd then we're watching American Idol .. but tis commercial .. you looked beautiful today .. thank you for coming to see me .. i miss you already .. since you and Jennifer are starting to think better i think maybe i should back away a little .? idk what to write .. today was okay .. school is so stupid .. im starting to fail nd i hate .. okay i gotta go ill finish later .. </3 i <3 nd miss you like crazy ..

fuck this stupid ass shit ..

2005-02-19T20:56:25Z

WELL highlight of my day .. getting bitched at by Jennifer .. oh and on top of that this fucking medicine sucks .. so while im feeling nauses and my heart is beating a million miles a minute .. i get this from Jennifer right before she signs off ..

" fuck you i hate you " "leave me and my g/f alone then ok bye bitch fuck you "

Fucked up shit dude .. i think i might do just that .. Off to find more happiness ..

.. why is it that evertime some one 'proves ' something to me i end up getting fucked .?

cOuGh CoUgH

2005-02-19T17:45:58Z
Last night was pretty cool .. i didnt end up getting there til 6-6:30 .. but it was okay cause Hope didnt get there til around 7 .. nd i didnt miss any bands .. but she missed the first one .. My Chemical Romance wasnt there .. what a fucking bummer .. oh well The Used was great .. oh dude it was so funny .. i forget which band but someone in the front of the stage flicked them off .. nd the guy like stops .. nd gives him this whole speach oh " the scene " and what its all about .. nd hes like so you know what .. if your gonna be like that .. then FUCK YOU .. it was so great .. the night was spent with Hope nd TJ .. the second half Omar was there too .. saw Tim .. he huggded me .. saw Lauren Sloan .. havent seen her in awhile .. saw Loren too .. he said hi to me when we were all squished together but i think Hope or someone hit him right when he was doing it cause he got really pissed then i didnt see him anymore .. TJ had to save me a couple times .. he huggded me too nd tolded me he loved me .. but i yelled at him cause when he got there he thought i was Tammy .. i was jk though .. hes really cool .. this was the first time meeting him .. i talked to him last time here was here .. some kid came up to us asking what the line was for .. cause Hope had backstage passes nd we were waiting for her .. nd then he's like .. you look like Prince .. nd TJ's like .. kay ?. then the kid started dancing nd singing Prince for us .. it was funny .. we tried to bum ciggerettes off of all these people .. TJ kept being sucessful .. no one had lighters though .. who brings ciggerettes nd not lighters ?.. idk .. anyways all in all it was pretty cool .. it was nice to hang out with Hope again .. its been awhile .. last concert i think .. i didnt get to say by to her nd TJ though cause they randed away .. :( .. its kay though .. oh .. i got lost during The Used .. i got kicked in the face .. nd punched a couple of times .. i forget what else happened .. i wish Danni would have been there .. even if she isnt a quote punk rocker unquote .. i hate seeing people all <3 with there people .. nd me all alone .. except i didnt really feel alone this time too much cause i had Hope nd TJ all lovey .. but still .. it isnt as if i had someone of my own .. umm .. last night i didnt get to talk to Danni .. it sucked .. i wanetd to call her during the concert .. but i had a feeling i shouldnt .. nd i was right .. Jennifer was there .. i wonder how that went .. i guess they worked things out .?. either that or they're just ignoring their issues .. i miss Tammy .. i havent seen her in a bajillion years .. :( .. DUDE my brother has a poster of Jenna Jameson with her tongue out nd Krystal Steal ? kinda kissing it .?. i saw it nd in my head im liek WTF .. tell me lesbians are nasty .. stupid douche bag .. i know he thinks there hott .. i think its cause he always sees the butch ones .. idk .. i gotta Mother called .. im out ..

I <3 You Too Fucking Much ..

p.s. comment to last entry was the best in the whole world .. </3

fLoOp

2005-02-18T22:02:43Z

Its early in the morning
And my heart is really moaning
Just thinkin bout you baby
Got me twisted into things
And I dont know how to take it
But its driving me so crazy
I dont know if its right
I'm tossin turning in my bed
Its 5 oclock in the morning
And I still cant sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
Weak...
I'm feeling hopeless at home
I dont know what to do but I think I'm in love
Baby...........

[Chorus]
Amor , no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that I have in my heart

Now I know you're not my lady I'm just tryin to make this right
I dont know what to do I'm going out of my mind
So baby if u let me could I getchu to say maybe we could ride together
We could do this all nite now I dont care if u got a man
Baby I wish ud understand
Cuz I kno he cant love u right, quite like I can
Its 5 oclock in the morning
And I still cant sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
Weak...
I'm feeling hopeless at home
I dont kno what to do but I think I'm in love

[Chorus]
Amor no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feelings (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that I have in my heart

I like the way u freak it like that
I like the way u freak it like that
I like the way u freak it like that
Its an obsession

[Baby Bash]
Hold up let me dream
Shorty got me feelin less supreme
Where my candy, where my cream
Got your boy feel less supreme
Hold up wait a minute baby you so damn independent
Loving everything your representing
Got alot of money, I love to spend it
And thats whats up and I dont care what people scream
No I'm blessin when I'm stressin
My superfly beauty queen
I'm gonna keep it saucy
Cuz my money know how I do, we go rendez-vous, mi corazon belongs to you

[Chorus]
Amor ...no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feelings (what am I doing wrong) what am I do wrong [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that I have in my heart
Amor... no es amor (if this aint love)
What am I feelling? (what am I doing wrong?) what am I do so wrong? [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that I have in my heart

Amor

(- ignore the in love part -)

Well today i had to go to the psyciatrist .. dude my mom forgot to tell me that the place she was working in today was a psyciatric hospital .. it was so creepy .. this lady was rocking back nd worth yelling things .. i wanted to call Danni to save me .. but she was unavaliable .. called Tammy nd she thought i was a weirdo .. lol .. well i went in with my mom at first nd the lady asked us all these questions .. then my mom just had to tell her i was a lesbian .. so when my mom left the lady asked me like a bajillion questions about being gay .. was so creepy .. nd she made me spell word backwards nd all this stuff .. then she gave me a prescription for Zoloft .. whoo hoo .. bleh .. i had to take some at TGIF .. nd all i feel is queasy .. idk whatever .. going to Taste of Chaos today .. alone .. but Hope said she'd hang out with me .. im so pissed cause im prob. not gonna get there til late cause my dad is far away nd cant get here .. nd by the time he does it still takes an hour to get there .. :( .. well i got to see Danni on the 16th .. twas nice .. i want to go to the fair with her tomorrow but idk if she wants to .. i want to go today cause thats when all the cool kids are going .. but wouldnt miss this for the world .. grr i wish my daddy would hurry up .. Hope is going out with Lance .. congrats <3 .. Maurice called me last night it was weird .. but nice to talk to him again .. Jessi called me to but only to find out where Danni was .. the pants i am wearing are the first low rise pants ive worn since 7th grade .. shit g2g hes here ..

I <3 YOU !!

two more .. bleh ..

2005-02-16T04:53:55Z
1: Grab the book nearest to you. turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says it says here: " how many times have i given my heart away in short-term relationships ?" - hah what a pick ..
2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
the computer desk
3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
The King of Queens
4: WITHOUT LOOKING what time is it: 12
5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time? 11:41
6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? my mom snoring ..
7: When did you last step outside? hours ago to get my camera
8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at? idk
9:What are you wearing? a wife beater nd blue dickies
10: Did you dream last night? no
11: When did you last laugh? earlier today
12: what is on the walls of the room you are in? nothing
13: seen anything weird lately? Vamp
14: What do you think of this quiz? idk
15: what is the last film you saw? Taxi
16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? a candy store
17: Tell me something about you that I don't know. idk .. there isnt much to know
18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? kill Bush
19: do you like to dance? no
20: George Bush? is an ass
21:Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Destiny
22: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Presten .. or Chase Ryan ( blushes )
23: Would you ever consider living abroad?
huh?
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I REGRET. lots of things
I WISH. for Danni to be happy
I LOVE. you
I HATE. people
I MISS. Staci
I FEAR. being alone
I SEE. no hope
I HEAR. typing
I SEARCH. for the truth
I KNOW. things will work out someday ..

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU...
SMILED? earlier today
DANCED? at the 8th grade dance
KISSED SOMEONE? um the first day of mid terms
HUGGED SOMEONE? yesterday :/
HAD A NIGHTMARE? dont remember
LAST THING YOU READ: idk stuff for school
LAST MOVIE YOU SAW ON THE BIG SCREEN: White Noise
LAST PHONE NUMBER YOU CALLED: none .. i dont call people
LAST SHOW YOU WATCHED ON TV: King of Queens
LAST SONG YOU HEARD: Mocking Bird
LAST THING YOU HAD TO DRINK: diet Coke
LAST THING YOU ATE: Chicken

DO YOU...
SMOKE? sometimes
SLEEP WITH STUFFED ANIMALS? kinda
HAVE A CRUSH? yeah
HAVE A DREAM THAT KEEPS COMING BACK? not now but i have
REMEMBER YOUR FIRST LOVE? yes
STILL LOVE HIM/HER? she was the first love after all
READ THE NEWSPAPER? sometimes
HAVE ANY GAY OR LESBIAN FRIENDS? mhm .. ( the person who did this before me wrote " Fuck ya, They rock " - thats cool lol :)
BELIEVE IN MIRACLES? no
BELIEVE IT'S POSSIBLE TO REMAIN FAITHFUL FOREVER? i can
CONSIDER YOURSELF TOLERANT OF OTHERS? depends
LIKE THE TASTE OF ALCOHOL? yeah
BELIEVE IN GOD? no
HAVE ANY SECRETS? no
HAVE ANY PETS? yes
GO TO OR PLAN TO GO TO A UNIVERSITY? mhm
WEAR HATS? never
HAVE ANY PIERCINGS? not yet
HAVE ANY TATTOOS? not yet
HATE YOURSELF? yes
HAVE A BEST FRIEND? Tammy
HAVE ANY BAD HABITS? ...
CARE ABOUT LOOKS? depends
TRUST OTHERS EASILY? nope
LIKE SARCASM? depends
TAKE WALKS IN THE RAIN? yes
KISS WITH YOUR EYES CLOSED? of course
SING IN THE SHOWER? no
HAVE ANY SCARS? yes

well fuck now im getting fucking bitched at .. im gonna go ..
she didnt call ..
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trying to take my mind off things ..

2005-02-16T03:54:23Z
Part 1 -- The Basics
Name: Angela
Age: 15
Age you act: Idk
Birthplace: CT
Current location: St. Cloud
Zodiac sign: Capricorn
Righty or lefty: righty
Number of siblings: 1
Are your parents still together?: no ..
Who do you live with?: my dad nd brother ..
Have any pets?: mhm .. two dogs nd a mouse ..
Part 2 -- Appearance
Height: 5'1 - maybe not
Weight: dont know ..
Shoe size: my converse are 5
Hair colour: brown .. i think
Hair length: short :(
Eye colour: blue
Glasses/contacts?: nope
Piercings: not yet
Tattoos: not yet
Scars: mhm
Braces: unfort.
Part 3 -- Favourites
Colour: black
Number: 7
Book: Annie on My Mind
Movie: Better Than Chocolate , SLC Punk ..
Actor: um .. Josh Hartnet
Actress: Sandra Bullock or Meg Ryan
TV show: Friends
Video game: CRASH!
Store: Hot Topic
Animal: Pengies ..
Season: winter
Cereal : none
Website: thisisacryforhelp.com
Cartoon/character: FAIRLY ODD PARENTS .. or King Chicken
Food: idk .. chicken
Flower: yellow rose
Scent: Georgio Armani
Restaurant: TGIF
Candy: Xtremes
Quote: "life sucks then you die " - My Biology Teacher
Part 4 -- Music
Favourite genre: Rock
Least favourite genre: Techno
Favourite band/singer/artist: My Chem
Favourite song: um .. Because of You ..
How many CDs do you have?: idk ..
Last CD you bought: the old My Chem CD
What are you currently listening to, or last listened to?: My Chem
Do you download music?: sometimes
Do you play an instrument?: not anymore
If so, what one(s)?: drums nd piano
Part 5 -- Love and Relationships
Straight/gay/bi?: gay- lesbian
In a relationship?: nope
If so, who and how long?: -----
If not, how long have you been single?: aprox. 5 weeks nd 1 day
Crush?: Danni ..
Do you believe in love at first sight?: no
What do you look for in a guy/girl?: trust nd understanding
What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?: opposite ?. um .. idk .. eyes i guess ..
What hair colour do you like?: blonde .. nd brown .. nd dyed .. nd well all of um ..
Is there a difference between 'love' and 'in love'?: big differance
Have you ever felt either? What one? How many times?: yeah .. twice .. love .. Katie nd Jennifer ..
Is it better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all?: yes ..
Do you prefer to date people younger, older, or the same age as you?: older
Do you believe in fate?: not sure
What about soul mates?: not sure
Still a virgin?: pshh yeah ..
If not, how old were you?: ----
Are you into casual sex?: no
Part 6 -- Have you ever...
Snuck out of the house?: yeah ..
Snuck a guy/girl into your room?: no
Been out of the country you reside in?: yeah .. Mexico
Had surgery?: no .. but Petah did :( .. oh well yeah i have .. but not major
Been arrested?: no
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: mhm
Been betrayed?: all the fucking time
Had a dream that came true?: no
Gone to school only to find out you had the day off?: nope
Gone skinny dipping?: almost
Gotten the chicken pox?: yeah
Part 7 - When was the last time you...
Brushed your teeth?: this morningg
Went to the bathroom?: idk .. couple minutes ago ..
Watched a movie? What was it?: today .. Taxi
Saw a movie in theatres? What movie?: hmm .. OH .. idk when but it was White Noise ..
Read a book?: dont know
Made fun of someone?: psh idk
Went to the grocery store?: awhile ago .. were poor ..
Got sick?: idk
Cursed?: minutes ago
Got into a fight/argument?: today ..
Went to a concert?: November 8th
Asked a friend for relationship advice?: last Friday ..
Downloaded something? What was it?: dont know
Part 8 -- This or That
Pepsi/Coke: coke
McDonalds/Burger King: neither
Chocolate/vanilla: depends
Adidas/Nike: Adidas
Burgers/hot dogs: neither
Fruits/vegetables: fruits
Lights on/lights off: off
TV/movies: movies
Pillows/blankets: blankets
Summer/winter: winter
Snow/rain: snow!
Meat/vegetables: neither
Cake/pie: neither unless tis cheese cake
Love/lust: love
Outdoors/indoors: indoors
Blonde/brunette: blonde
Ocean/swimming pool: neither
Hugs/kisses: Kisses
Wallet/pocket: wallet
Cat/dog: dog
Long sleeves/short sleeves: short
Pants/shorts: pants
Doughnuts/bagels: idk
Day/night: night
Make love/have sex: make love
Part 9 -- Do you...
Believe in yourself?: no
Want to go to college?: yeah
Want to get married?: no
Want to have children?: no
If so, how many?: 0
Believe in aliens?: no .. but that still reminds me of Tammy .. nd that guy who sounded like MJ
Think you're good looking?: no
Un-tie your shoes every time you take them off?: nope
Plan on moving anywhere in the near future?: maybe
If so, when, where?: July .. Connecticut
Get along with your parents?: sometimes
Get along with your siblings?: sometimes
Sing in the shower?: no
Have any secrets?: not really
Regret doing/not doing anything in life?: yes
Part 10 -- What is your opinion on...
Reality TV?: stupid
Eminem?: gangsta
Religion?: idiotic
Valentine's Day?: torture
Interracial relationships?:
Abortion?: depends
Obesity?: fat people are gross
Death penalty?: should have stayed electic chair .. what is this we're letting them off with lethal injection bullshit about .?!
Prostitution?: daddy wont let me meet a hooker
Marijuana?: runs in the family
Other drugs?: bring my household down ..
Alcohol?: its great .. i need some right about now ..
Gay marriage?: why the fuck does anyone else care what we do
Illegal immigrants?: kill the border hoppers
Drunk driving?: also runs in the family
Cloning?: why the fuck ..
Premarital sex?: useless
The war in Iraq?: dont give a shit
George Bush?: fucking duche bag
Downloading music?: its free
The legal drinking age?: stupid .. go to Cancun kids
Pornography?: PLAYBOY
Suicide?: the easy way out
Love?: is painful
Part 11 -- Randomness
What colour is your tooth brush?: green
What's on your desktop?: Me nd Tammy
Your first thought when you wake up: _
Your greatest accomplishment: nothing
Something you want to do: have a normal relationship
What size bed do you have?: queen
What do you normally sleep in?: wife beater nd .. whatever
Do you dream a lot?: sometimes
What was your last dream/nightmare?: stuff going on in school with me , Amber , nd Derek
Would you ever sky dive?: yeah
Are you talking to anyone right now?: nope
When was the last time you cried?: last night
What is one thing that annoys you most?: liers
Name three things you 'can't live without': candy , christina aguilera even though she is cheating on me nd is engaged , and uh .. idk
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: everything
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: ???
What do you like the most about your body?: uh .. my coke nail ..
And the least?: my nose
The last time you talked on the phone: couple hours ago
What did you last eat?: chicken
Use 3 words to describe how you're feeling: worthless , stupid , and sad
What day is it?: Tuesday
What time is it?: 10:52

okay i dont feel any better .. ive only did this quiz 100 times throughout the years .. ima fund a new one .. </3

peterpann @ 2005-02-15T21:55:00

2005-02-16T03:04:46Z

Lesha Danielle Myers .. Feb. 14th 2005

one of the pictures from Valentine's Day ..

fuck .. i dont feel like updating anymore .. ill edit it later .. im fucking out .. </3

missing you ..

2005-02-15T02:35:20Z
Stole this one from Keg ..

What if ....
» I died:
» I said I liked you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
» Family:

Stole this one from Hope .. they're kinda the same ..
What if...

...I puked, would you pull back my hair?
...I had a problem, would you sit down and talk to me about it?
...I was in trouble, would you help me?
...I ran away, would you go with me?
...I moved away?
...I shaved my hair bald?
...I got a tattoo?
...I told you to keep a secret, even though there was a risk hiding it?
...I said i'd love you forever?
...I had to go to the hospital, would you come see me?
...I lost my sight?
...hearing?
...I died?

Valentine's Day wasnt nearly as bad as i thought it would be .. school sucked as usual .. suprisingly i get an extra day with my paper .. which im supposed to be doing right now .. hah .. good thing i skipped Friday .. i got to spend practically the whole day with Danni .. Jennifer doesnt know what she is missing out on .. she drives me crazy guys .. i wish she was still here .. i wish she would spend the night .. sometime she will .. i hope .. grr .. its so hard to control one's self in the presence of beauty .. nd such cuteness .. i took loads of pictures .. she doesnt like any of them .. i think they're great .. ill put some in here once i get home .. or later tonight if i fishish my project .. which reminds me i really should get going .. ill write more later ..

i <3 nd Miss You Like Crazy .!.

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